A Married Couple trying hard to Conceive

Interesting past lives reading for a married couple trying to have a baby and nothing seems to be working.  They decided to look at past lifetimes to see what if anything was blocking their wishes.   

When I requested to see their past lives, I was taken to the 1700’s in France.  There they were studying to be a nun and a priest.  They were on the same grounds and very happy in their career choices.  Maybe a little too happy….they enjoyed wine and laughing like kids and began having sex with each other, which was taboo.  She really prayed and prayed not to get pregnant as this would destroy both of them.  She took a few chances over their affair and they used their power of prayer that worked, she did not ever get pregnant.  They grew apart, he derived very much social satisfaction being a priest.  She became more and more lonely and sad by being in the career choice she made.  She died lonely and sad.  She wished they could have been a family together.

The next lifetime I saw them together was more current. It was simple and sweet.  They were brother and sister.  They wanted to make sure they were together so they came back as siblings.  They had a teasing and fun childhood together, very sweet and innocent, she was the sister who would tease her brother and he would take it in good stride.  They lived near each other as adults and had families of their own.  I sense that this was in the Eastern United States.

This lifetime, the couple met at a young age and liked each other immediately.  They married young and enjoyed years of career building and now is the time to start a family.  It’s been a year since they have been “trying” to conceive.  I did this reading yesterday (10/08/20) and the recommendation I suggested is to be aware of the power of the past relationship, the one when they prayed so hard not to get pregnant, to forgive all aspects from that lifetime to remove the emotional blocks that were created.  

A Couple Who Wanted to View Their Past Life Times Together….

     Stewart – I am taken to a time when I see a face in an era when paper money was first starting to be printed in the United States.  You had a narrow face with reddish complexion, fair reddish hair, teeth were crowded, British decent from your father’s side.  He helped make muskets.  He had an engineer kind of mind, he was very intelligent.
     When you were a boy, you ran freely on hilly beautiful stretches of land. I see the location was in West Virginia or Virginia, close to each other’s boarders.  It was beautiful landscapes and really quite a heavenly place to be as a child.  You were the only boy in a family of girls so you received special attention.  You  were very smart and the local mothers tried to keep up teaching you new things because you would learn and absorb information so quickly!  Your intelligence became well known and as a young man, and were considered a “steward” when you were awarded a government position, not as a politician but more of an overseer, confidant and support person.  I see your name was Chester.
     You were completely entrusted and placed in production and creation of new currency.  You had input into some of the design and parts of the engineering of it.  You were paid well at the time.  It was a satisfying job because you could use your creativity and see the production of the trust notes being put into circulation. You felt very fortunate to have this responsibility being so young.
     You were not a “rich” man then, but became very comfortable and soon after you were working, you courted a society girl and became engaged and married “right” woman…..her name was Catherine.  It was more of a societal arrangement than romantic love, but you two were happy enough together, there was nothing unpleasant that you could not accept in each other.  She had a little nervous tick in her lip and she tried to cover it up by talking a lot.  Your wife in that lifetime is someone you are related to presently, perhaps your sister or first cousin.  Your current mother just came up and she looks to be your same mother in that lifetime. She very much has her arms extended and wanting to give the world to you.  I feel a lot of love from her toward you.
     Fast forward…..several years later spending much time in your job, it became somewhat of boring for you, as you always wanted and needed more and different things to do.  One of the things that helped you was to reminiscent about your past freedom as a child.  Your mind was able to take you away to pleasant moments easily.  You tended to daydream when you were bored at work.  And you even fantasied to take the printed money and “hideout” but you never did because you had way too much to lose – mainly your family and standing in the community and you were far too logical to do something like that.  You were a complex man.
     Your and Abigail’s paths crossed during that lifetime, she was not your wife but someone you longed for because Abigail was an outspoken free woman, she was not married and was kind of tom-boy.  You would see her at town gatherings and she was a beautiful figure for you and she became etched deep in your psyche.  You started to became a little obsessed with her.
First Lifetime I see….
     Abigail  – First of all you were stunningly beautiful with long thick dark hair and your eyes were strikingly beautiful, almond shaped and deep blue.  Other women did not like their husbands to look into your eyes and said you possessed evil.
     You always had several men who longed for you (Chester being one of them) which gave you much attention from many admirers.  And for Chester, you were a secret fantasy dream woman.  It appears that thinking of you helped him escape his day-to-day “grind”.
     During this lifetime I see so much of the “constitution” going around you and you knew and understood that this was a very historical place and time.  You were not too interested in marriage and tried to figure out how not to get married.   You were very smart and your thoughts were valued by politicians but unfortunately many jealous wives did not want you speaking or making eye-contact with their husbands.  You were not too interested in marriage and tried to figure out how to get out of it.
     I do see you were a lover to a powerful political man and he loved your fertile mind and views.  He used many of your thoughts in his speeches which centered on freedom and independence.  Although you were a little frustrated over not getting the recognition for your freedom thoughts, you overcame it knowing your thoughts would benefit a nation for lifetimes to come.   You saw the greater cause and knew in your heart and mind that you made an everlasting impression and difference in a nation forming itself.
     I see your support system in that lifetime was working with your “sisters” in a brothel, it was a discreet business but everyone in town knew what was really going on.  You had many beautiful things to wear, made from exotic materials, colors and hand sewn by your sisters.  The styles you help create ended up starting new trends among affluent society.
     You became the “mother” of the sisters and your idea was each sister would wear a unique beautiful different color.  You had a rainbow of girls you liked to say.  You always made sure that you looked regal, dignified and proper when you went out.  You had a main escort who took you to events, shopping and errands.  I have to say I even see a feather in your hat, totally pretty, purple color, very pretty face.
     I see that you tripped and fell on a lantern and your dress caught fire, it was quite scary, but one of the girls saved you by throwing a bowl of water on the bottom of your dress.  She who saved you is important because she is your best friend presently.  You had some burns on your legs but I see you recovered because you had local doctors looked after you very well (you were their favorite patient!) 🙂
     I do not see a traumatic death in this lifetime but understand that you passed by natural causes, everyone really catered to you, and at times you were a little dramatic, but this was part of your personality.
     You were happy and content and did not marry in this lifetime.  This was shown to me first and somehow it was a lifetime that is influencing you today.  It was a colorful life and very satisfying and rewarding because of your influence in all who you touched then.  Your thoughts, style and friendships were deeply felt.
Second lifetime I see….
The prior lifetime – just prior to Abigail’s lifetime
     I see an earlier lifetime that you were very wise and understood past lives and there were a few of you who thought like this…. it was kept very quiet. You were deeply spiritual in earthly ways which was taught to you by your mom.  She was from the Cherokee tribe and your father fought in a war.  You kept your spiritual awareness to yourself, but was a very active young woman who loved political conversations (again) .  You were happy and knew how to overcome any daily adversity that may arise.
     I see a childbirth in this lifetime, the father of your child was not close by, he was a very unique man and was a “soul searcher” and you two loved each other very much. He had the opportunity to work as a trail blazer which he very much wanted to do.  It was a difficult decision for you to come to grips with but he was determined to be a part of a new adventure with the hopes of a new life for you and your baby son.  When you said your farewells you both knew it may be years if ever you would get to see him again.
     You and your mother raised your son together and at times, different men played father roles to him.  It was into the fourth year of your husbands departure when you fell in love with one of the men.  He was there daily.  You couldn’t help fall in love with him seeing how he treated your son and your mother.
     You both filled a void for each other and you two decided to be together.  He was a white man.  I see that it was a very difficult situation for you, should you remain a faithful wife or start a new one together life together with him.   As it turns out it was the right decision, because your husband never did return.  You received a letter from one of his co-workers that he was accidentally killed by a large piece of clearing equipment.
     Another very difficult part of your life was shortly you married your mother passed away with a fever (Yellow Fever).   It was a rough and rugged existence and you and your new husband needed each other for survival.
     When you would go to town, once or twice per year, because it was a long journey there, you observed how comfortable wealthy people looked and how they lived.  You wanted that lifestyle eventually, and you were wise to know that if you were going to come back in a future life it would be someone with means and wealth….So that is why you came back as Abigail.  It was difficult to see your name in this lifetime.
Third Lifetime
     This is three-four hundred years ago…..I see a lifetime that you  with beautiful clothing dancing for a Turkish Sheikh. You had beautiful eyes and all the fine things, clothing, shoes, silks and in particular you had the most gorgeous eyes, the Sheikh longed to possess.  He had many women in his harem and you were one of them.  He fell in love with your eyes and decided to make you his  his head wife, because he wanted you to bear as many children as you could so he could own a “nation” of beautiful eyed children.
     You were honored to be his main wife and had a fantastic wedding ceremony and grandest of parties that lasted days with lavish gifts, food, wine, and celebration.  It was a major event and solidified you as his princess.
     Soon after your honeymoon, you were pregnant.  You gave birth to a boy with beautiful eyes.  Happy times and celebrations followed.  You gave birth to baby two and three consecutively and then cam baby four and you were really tired of being pregnant and you had had enough.  You really needed a break for awhile because you were tired all the time and cared so much for you children and it was very uncomfortable for you.
     You knew of a “doctor” who could give you special herb that would help prevent pregnancy so on the sly you decided to purchase then and keep it hidden from your Master/husband.  But because word travels fast who wants these herbs, the information got back to your husband.
     When he found out and realized you were betraying his trust, he did not want to be made of fool of (he had a huge ego!) he was quick to make a decision to have you killed immediately.  He ordered his man to sneak up on you and behead you.
     It was so quick that you did not really feel it and you really didn’t know what happened as you left your body.  From your perspective you were in your body and left it quickly thinking you fainted.  You floated above the scene not understanding what had happened.  You kept watch over your young children’s life from a spiritual level and protected them too.
     It was such a shock to the community that it made everyone very afraid of your husband.  There was a burial for you but it was rather humble, as he said you were a betrayer.  He had to prove his strength as the Sheikh.
     However, his deep sorrow and guilt (big mistake) caused a painful existence for the rest of his life and when he looked into your children’s eyes it basically drove him insane.  You never wanted to have another lifetime with him, but he has always been searching for you because of his tremendous guilt.  You are protected from incarnating with him, however, you loved your children and they loved you too, and you have had a few lifetimes with them.

Most likely you lived more than a hundred lifetimes….

Most likely you have been reincarnated at least 100 lifetimes or more.  Generally speaking from what I have experienced in my readings, is that most of our lifetimes had a very closely related repeated pattern but plays out uniquely in each life with similar scenarios.

What happens, is when a request is made by you, I then request to see the important lifetimes that are affecting you presently.  It is interesting to note, that unless you request to be shown them, I won’t really see too much.  Seeing you in person is not required either.   I believe the “teachers” want to send information that is pertinent to you.  I basically transcribe what I see in the pictures, word phrases and short stories that are flashed in my mind upon my request based on your request.  Understanding  past lifetimes can serve as a tool for present growth, progression, awareness and benefit in the soul to move “forward” more quickly and with less pain and suffering.

The good news is there is great comfort in “undoing” karmic lessons.  The soul wants to reach a state of “nirvana” ultimately!

OK, so this is going to sound preachy, but it is not, from what I understand to be true, it is on a self-study program at your own pace, but we still “got to do the work ourselves”.  I know, “BORING”, but true forgiveness, not just the subjective, objective, I forgive you, you forgive me, is not exactly it.  Gary Renard explains this….in “Disappearance of the Universe”.   If you get good at practicing forgiveness with your omnipresence mindset, seeking Oneness slowly but surly will become your clear road to Enlightenment.   This is what I have been learning through the many readings I have done.

Loyalty, Trust and Deep Bonds Speak to this Man

This reading I did for a client who asked if I could see her friend’s three most influential past lives.  When this is asked, I form a request and in this case, once the request was made, the information flowed freely.  Here is what I received shortly after I cleared my mind:

First Lifetime – I see a falcon and a man looking up towards it. The creature and he have a very strong connection through their eyes.  I see him with his leather sleeve glove out stretched and the falcon landing on his arm. They have a deep love and understanding for each other. The man kisses his head. Love, affection and undying loyal bond is between each other and dependencies on each other is what makes this lifetime important.  It is something that strongly influences his understanding of this lifetime. As I look further, they became separated during wartime. The falcon became lost and very disorientated (his inner timings, landings, departures, almost like a clock mechanism) when he finally returned to find his master was no longer living there. There was tremendous guilt the master experienced over the disconnection of their relationship.  The guilt followed long after he returned to his homeland country until his eventual death of natural causes.

2nd Lifetime – I see a makeshift wooden cage in a laboratory type setting and there is a man rattling a birdcage. He is speaking some kind of German….he looks frustrated because his birds (lovebirds or doves) are on the bottom of the cage. He is smoking and I sense he has real pressure to have and keep them alive. He is a commander in the military and has a whip in his side, leather boots, large rimmed type of combat hat for special occasions. He is very high ranking and stressed out and feels a squeezing as though he is in the middle of two high pressured worlds.  He made a mistake with the laboratory experiments and understands it could be great consequences.  He is not sure sure how to get out of this complicated position. He contemplated suicide for a brief moment, but before he knew it, he was stabbed suddenly in the back by a trusted colleague who was ordered to do so from the top ranking General.

3rd Lifetime – I see a young boy who looks like he is from the “Aesop’s Fable” era, as a sweet young boy, with curly dark hair, his father’s favorite son.  It appears that this is his most special life time and the memory of it is like a shadow through many of his past lives, always having a yearning to return to this period of time. He had all things he needed and loved. His father made him special in his light. His father actually thought his son was a miniature of himself. It was a father/son twin relationship and both had deep understanding for each other. They lived together their entire life in a beautiful Greek palace, enjoying bow and arrow as their sport.  I see them both getting ill at the same time and dying within a short period of time of each other.  Something they drank in their goblet killed them.  It was very tragic and shocked all in the large extended family and servants.

Their souls incarnated together several times and they have helped each other understand all aspects of relationships.  This lifetime his son was his then-father.

About Me

I’m not sure if it’s because I was struck with a baseball as a child or some psychic lineage that I’m unaware of but in my twenties, my psychic skills began to emerge. It began with a poem I heard in my heard from a distinct point of view that wasn’t mine. I developed my skills with many readings, always looking for validation when possible.

I turned my attention to past-life readings a number of years ago as they are so intriguing. We all have relationships or repeated patterns where we wonder if a past life I was involved. Usually, yes! For my readings, I like to have very little knowledge about my subject. For my celebrity readings, I generally know what is common knowledge but do not do any research beforehand.
I hope you enjoy these past-life readings as much as I enjoyed seeing them. If you would like to have a reading for yourself, please contact via the link on this site.



I feel really different after these readings. Like some part of me that I didn’t understand suddenly makes sense. I think I have always been intuitive but recently it has kicked up a notch. I get senses when I should or shouldn’t do things and I am working on getting better and listening to my thoughts and imaginings. This is an area I would like to continue to develop.
Thank you SO MUCH for sharing these with me. I am loving this process in self discovery.   I am looking forward to the next one!  -Sarah

Wow! This is awesome!  You have a wonderful gift!  Thanks so very much!!!!!!! – Marge

When I was a boy, I could feel people loving me, and as an adult I still feel like a boy who is loved. And, though I have experienced some prejudice in my life, there has been far more love that has blessed me. I often wonder why I am so blessed 🙂

I would love to hear more, if it’s possible?

Thanks again!!! 🙂   – J.K.

Sample of Three Past Life Readings

This Man’s Past Lifetime Readings Brings “Awe” and More Meaning to His Life.

First Lifetime – Boy of Sunshine/ Laughing Boy – You were a young boy in India. This life seems to be a mirror. You were a very happy child and beautiful too. You had a sheep or goat and I see you carrying it, as your pet with you all the time. Everyone loved and admired you. Boy of Sunshine, you always looked towards the sun and felt this gave you your strength. You and your goat brought the entire town a lot of joy. You would carry him to the water and everyone smiled at you. Fast forward…. I see you as a teen/young man. You still have your goat and you still can pick him up and he allows you to carry him. Your family was really destitute living in a town in complete poverty. As a young man you and your goat/lamb decided to find a better place for your family. So you set out with your goat and a pair of leather sandals and began walking, and walking for several days. You and your goat were really on the verge of thirst and your sandals were falling apart causing your feet to hurt, when you approached an oasis. You were not sure if this was an illusion or not, but you kept walking, and finally arrived there and it was not an illusion but a prosperous city surrounded by water. The townspeople could not believe you and your goat had made it there!! They immediately assisted in attending to your needs. They realized that you must be a very special spiritual being, so they honored you with anything you wanted and needed. You asked to send for your family so you could live there with you. The town gave you the nicest most beautiful dwelling, with gardens, and fresh foods. Anything you wanted and needed was granted to you. You made your family a wonderful life. You were a good person, kind and never had a mean thought in this lifetime. You were recognized for your “specialness” and spiritual gifts. You were also very handsome with a great smile that made everyone happy by your presence. You were very loved and cherish and highly respected. You lived long and died of natural causes with a smile on your face. 🙂

Second Lifetime – A Shoemaker- This seems to be some place in southern Europe. What I saw that this was before the Sunshine boy lifetime. You lived in a town where your family owned and passed down the job to you of being a shoe maker. You specialized in sandals! Funny, but you had a large smart mind and making shoes was a little boring and it made you realize that you should be the one wearing and walking in these shoes to exciting places, not making them. It was frustrating for you but you decided to be happy to have a job and support your family. It wasn’t an exciting existence, but your day dreaming of a better life helped you to stay in a lifetime of shoe making. This lifetime you were again, very nice looking. You were married to a local towns girl (semi-arranged marriage) and had two sons. It looks as though your two sons there came here as your sons again- your two oldest sons.

Third Lifetime – Pharaoh- This goes way back……to the Egyptian Pyramid period. You were born into royalty. You were very handsome, charismatic and lived in beautiful surroundings with lots of gold. You had everything given to you. You became a pharaoh when you were 13 years old and ruled until you were 24 years old. What I see here, is your hands reaching out to a lot of people and things that allowed your passion to be satisfied and gratified any time you wished. You died rather suddenly. It was either from a quick disease but very likely you were poisoned. I see a name that could have been yours, Natannenan, something like that. Sun worshiping was the spiritual practice. It wasn’t a long lifetime but there were lots of passionate moments in this lifetime.

Can We Accelerate Our Own Spiritual Path?

Are you doing enough Spiritual self-discovery?  This site is dedicated to assisting you in discovering your past lives and seeing that they do affect this lifetime, I believe that when you become aware of them you can forgive, release and let go of the emotional bonds, that effect your life.  Knowing some of your past lives will help free you from karmic bonds and help in your overall  happiness and well-being.

The core or “backbone” of my philosophy is based on “A Course in Miracles”, ACIM, and was channeled by a research psychologist who heard the Voice of Jesus.  Her name was Dr. Helen Schucman, and she was helped enormously by her colleague, Dr. William Thetford.  The other major players in the history of the Course were Dr. Kenneth Wapnick, Judith Skutch Whitson, and Bob Skutch who eventually formed the Foundation for Inner Peace, which became the publisher of the Course in 1976.

Dr. Kenneth Wapnick became Gary Renard’s  teacher in his first book,  DISAPPEARANCE OF THE UNIVERSE, “DU”, Straight Talk about Illusions, Past Lives, Religion, Sex, Politics, and the Miracles of Forgiveness.  My dear friend and I bought the book on first release and went to see Gary speak in Las Vegas to a small group of new listeners.  We had him sign our books and understood there that his book clearly explained our deepest spiritual questions in the most logical, purely nondualistic spiritual thought system, which the books explain.

Gary’s next book, YOUR IMMORTAL REALITY:  How to Break the Cycle of Birth and Death was another break through in understanding our souls progress and to once and for all break the Cycle of Birth and Death.  His next book was, LOVE HAS FORGOTTEN NO ONE:  The Answer to Life, I could not read it fast enough, it is truly a work from a heavenly source.

When you think there is not more information, Gary comes out with his latest on November 14th, 2017, “The Lifetimes When Jesus and Buddha Knew Each Other.”  I have not finished it yet, but soon will report in one it.  All of his books are a conversation of Gary with two ascended masters, Arten and Pursah.

My part I see in this process is to assist you, the seeker, to see your major past lifetimes that are affecting you now.  Through the practice of forgiveness you can release karmic ties, let go and become a nondualistic spiritual power source that we were intended to be, like Jesus and Buddha.